Protect My Energy
Out Now!
A Note From Beverly About the Song:
If you still have an attachment to a past toxic relationship, and you haven’t released that chapter of your life, it's time that you start protecting your energy. Oftentimes in toxic relationships, the other person's trauma that they’ve endured is projected onto you. Do we despise them for it? Sure, maybe. But I like to look at it as they haven’t learned to protect their energy. They haven’t learned how to correctly process the trauma that was probably passed down from someone else in their life.
Trauma is the response to a distressing event that overwhelms an individual’s ability to cope, and diminishes their sense of self and their ability to feel a full range of emotions and experiences. It can be any type violence, abuse, car accident, etc.
In my mind, Protecting your energy means that you have mindful practices in place to turn to when you recognize that someone is trying to project their negative energy onto you. I'm not saying you have to go to yoga or meditate, I’m talking about one deep inhale and exhale to put you in a protective bodily state.
Obviously there's so many different ways you can practice mindfulness, but one deep inhale and exhale and imagining a protective bubble surrounding your body when you are getting talked down to, or belittled by someone.
Your energy is sacred. You will be with one person for the entirety life, and that is yourself. If you don’t protect your unique and sacred energy, you become a prime target for someone to come and take it from you.
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Protect My Energy Out Now
The night I wrote “Protect My Energy” I was so in my head. I was trying to song-write but nothing was coming out. I started overthinking and questioning myself as an artist. Self destructive thoughts started flooding my head. It got so bad and uncontrolled that I was crying, biting my nails, and I eventually curled up in a ball on my bed. After a good 20 minutes of having this moment, I realized I had stumbled back into a self destructive state. It would be easier if I laid there, but I needed to get all of these thoughts out of my head. I got up, washed my face, and created a safe space in my room. I quickly cleaned up, put a pillow on the ground, grabbed my journal, lit a candle and turned off the lights. I sat on the pillow on my floor and wrote in my journal about why I felt this way.
I let the pen take the lead and poured all of my thoughts go onto the journal pages. Most of what I wrote was nonsense. But one golden nugget that will stick with me forever, and that is actually the opening line of “Protect my Energy” is - “I didn’t ask for your trauma to be passed onto me.”
Say this line outloud. How does it make you feel? Did a pit fall into your stomach? Or maybe you got the chills when you said it outloud. If you felt heavy in any way, you have had someone toxic in your life. I'm here to tell you that you are worthy of boundaries. You are worthy of self care. You are worthy of feeling like yourself again.
It’s been three years since I’ve had this person out of my life, and I think I’m just starting to heal. Everybody heals in different ways, but what occurred on this night is now my ritual if I start to have self destructive thoughts. Lighting a candle, sitting on the floor, and non-stop writing in my journal is part of my healing.
It’s been three years since I’ve had this person out of my life, and I think I’m just starting to heal. Everybody heals in different ways, but what occurred on this night is now my ritual if I start to have self destructive thoughts. Lighting a candle, sitting on the floor, and non-stop writing in my journal is part of my healing.
It’s never too late to start the healing process. It’s time you start protecting your energy.
Discography
From r&b pop to conceptual acoustic pieces, Beverly’s full discography shows an artist in full control of her talents.
Protect My Energy
“I didn’t ask for your trauma to be passed on to me.”
Only the Good Vibes- EP
“I love when the beat fits the vibe that I’m in. I love the connection when lovers touch skin”.
Primary Emotions- EP
“Treat me like you’re still trying to win me over. And you’ll find, you ain’t never gonna lose me again”